Joel D. Lazar, Ph.D.
CA Licensed Psychologist  PSY 12520

3262 Holiday Court, Ste. 220   1267 Rosecrans Ave., Ste. E
La Jolla, CA 92037                San Diego, CA  92106
Ph.: 619-540-6038                                        Email: doctorj7989@gmail.com

To Cry or Not To Cry

Tears well in my heart.
Loss is usually
the Pied Piper of my tears.
Like atoms in a closed space,
this loss bounces off of prior losses,
accelerating and seeking freedom,
and a release of the growing tension.
But I’m a man.
And the Pied Piper isn’t welcome
in the village known as my eyes.
But I’m growing to wonder,
“why not?”
I usually feel better
after his sneaky visits,
leaving droplets of pain
on my face,
and out of my heart.
But I’m realizing that
it’s not just tension release.
It’s self-validation.
My hurt is real,
and it counts.
Tears are my tangible evidence.
Obviously, the courthouse 
isn’t the only venue where 
tangible evidence is weighty.
At least for me.